I think it is common, or rather, I have seen this pattern emerge within my circle of friends. The nature of a long-distance friendship changes and hinges predominantly on long phone calls to catch up. These calls are exhausting and rejuvenating at the same time in that they allow you to hear about all of the news that has transpired while allowing you to reconnect with people you care about. It isn’t that we don’t think of them more often than the times we pick up the phone to call, it is that we know that short conversations are not part of our repertoire. And so we rethink dialing, and conclude “I’ll give her a call when I have time to catch up properly.”
By the time you realize it has been way too long, months have gone by and you feel that the longing to reconnect has grown so loud that it cannot be ignored. It is at this point that you pick up the phone and confess how much you have missed them, apologize for the delay in contact, and pick right up where you left off.
This is precisely where I am at this moment.
It has been way too long since I sat down to write. Each time I tried to compose a post, I found myself overwhelmed by the amount of explaining I had to do. It seems that so much time has passed that I am not even sure where to start. So I suppose I will start with a warm Hello and I have missed you.
Spring semester finished with a bang and too soon after, summer term consumed my existence. Five weeks of hell – of my own creation I might add, nobody forced me to go back to school – followed in which essays were due every 3 days (regardless of whether it was a weekday or not) and hundreds of pages had to be read for those essays. It was chaotic, sloppy, and miserable… but I finished. The amount of sitting that was required for reading/writing drove me mad and so after the final paper was submitted, I closed the laptop, closed the door to the office, and did not return to it until today. Two weeks later, I feel that my brain has healed and that I’m ready to move on.
So what is next you may ask? Well a lot. But I’ll update you on that bit by bit. Now begins the process of putting together a list of schools I want to apply to, as well as getting my applications together (and all that this will entail). Still no major developments on the baby front – but I’ll update you on the most recent details of that later. As for right now, I have some catching up to do. I have to catch up on your lives, reconnect with friends, and enjoy life one day at a time.
I have missed you.